Have you ever had a hard time getting out of bed in the morning? Not completely because you’re tired, but because the will just isn’t there? You get up every morning out of obligation because…well, because bills; but, on your weekends or off days you just can’t find your way out of bed. It’s comforting and familiar and a way to escape reality. This is my struggle.
I have bouts of depression and I have anxiety and I’m an introvert and because it costs monies that I don’t have to talk to a professional, I’ll just let it out here. For free. I’m a lifestyle blogger and this is a part of life that many people deal with, but probably don’t know how. I’m here to share.
I, proud introvert, take solace in alone time to reenergize my battery; though, I can also do this with a person who I feel extremely comfortable with. I give so much of my energy getting myself through my work days and weeks that when the weekend comes I just don’t want to do anything. I feel like when I get up in the morning I’m one whole person, but going to work and interacting with people finds me coming home feeling like swiss cheese. The only way I feel fills those holes is to come home, get in bed, and just be alone. I watch tv, I lurk social media, and become whole again.
This is my norm. But I know it’s hindered me in many different areas of life. I’m single, I’m not so good with social interactions, I overthink, I’m generally afraid, and other things. But that’s the point of opening up here. Maybe I can help someone and someone can help me to overcome these things. This isn’t a pity party. This is me opening up and declaring this my safe space to be honest and clear my head.
This is called #thestruggle and it’ll hopefully change my life…any maybe even yours.