As this month draws to a close, I feel the need to reflect upon what life has taught me. Life is friggin tough, Bro. Not that this is breaking news or anything, but that’s what I’ve got. Adulting is really a scam, Folks.
I don’t know what else to say. I work, I pay bills, I make difficult life decisions because gentrification and the cost of living don’t equate to what people actually make, I go to bed, and I do it all over again the next day. I’ve taken chances and have gone out on a limb and have been rejected and disappointed; but I keep taking those chances because I know that things in my life have to change and no one is going to change it but me. It’s exhausting AF.
I keep going. Through disappointments, heart break, rejection, and hopelessness I keep going. Resilience is embedded deep within me and finds a way to push through when hopelessness feels overwhelming. January has taught me that my resiliency is stronger than I could ever imagine. Like, fr fr.
I’ve been tested and tried and there’s honestly nowhere I can go from here that’s not up. January really has taught me to keep it pushing. It’s hard, it sucks, it’s redundant but it doesn’t have to be. Keep pushing. Push until things start to move in your favor. You’ve already done what feels to be the worst ever, so you’ve got to believe you’re ready for the best ever. Even if you have to go through the worst again—you know how to make it though.
One month down, eleven more to go.